My little heart keeps asking me “why?”
I hear her tiny voice in the quiet early morning hours but I have no answer for her.
She has stayed up all night again.
Thinking about the past, feeling the pain and sorrow of the now.
She has fallen into a deep dark pit,
Her little voice echoing off the steep, cold sides.
I keep reaching out to her but her tiny hands
Have not the strength to hold on.
So she sinks back to the bottom and
Remains in sorrow and darkness.
It is a shame to witness this. She used to be such
A happy little thing,
Always positive, always trusting.
Albeit, sometimes a bit too naive for her own good,
But it was a naiveté not based on stupidity or ignorance but
One based on a choice to trust and believe in spite of the red flags not to.
I am afraid for her, she is weak and there are
Beasts down there in the darkness.
Beasts who lie to her,
Who tell her she is not good enough, that she is unlovable and a fool.
They sneak in while she sleeps and
Whisper doubts in her ear.
I keep trying to tell her to be strong and not listen to their lies,
But I don’t think she can hear me yet.
So I wait on the edge of the pit
With an open mind and open hand to catch her the next time she climbs to within my reach.
I don’t mind waiting because I know she will try again soon in spite of the pain and sorrow.
I have faith in her – she is not a quitter.
4 thoughts on “She is Not a Quitter”
This choked me up Michelle. She’ll get out of there….I’m sure of that. Resilience of the human spirit. And each time she falls back it won’t be as far. The loss hits us in waves, and they settle out after awhile. It’s just still fresh for you. I know you’ll get your pre-him life back. xo
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I am here with you, thank you for sharing. I’m struggling with this too. But we will get thru to VICTORY.
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yes, I know we will, just so hard in the meantime… I hope you succeed too! Hugs to you, Michelle
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This was very powerful. I felt like the girl in the pit and it was nice to think of someone standing at the top with a hand out stretched. This might be an inspiration for a guided meditation. It could be a good one.