Misplaced

Waterfalls of silence

flood my senses and heart.

It is too hard and too soft at the same time.

Smokey shadows of what could have been linger.

“If only” echos across my senses

alone to exist in the perpetual in-between.

Only a thought, a glimpse of there and then.

Not here and now.

Passion, mine,

misplaced and misunderstood remains

quiet and sleepy now,

All consuming,

Silently alone.

Too Late

It’s too late now.

No point in trying to start over.

It is back.

Same but different.

I feel like I’m waiting.

Waiting for life to pass as children do when they play games

killing time to grow up.

Except,

I’m killing time to die.

But it’s not a sad state.

It feels normal.

A part of the progression of life.

Moving toward the end,

is smooth and well… it’s okay.

I feel sometimes like time has stopped.

My quest for life’s riches has ceased to be important and, in its place,

is a quiet resignation, a comfort.

Gratitude fills me with the knowing that all is as it should be.

There truly is a time for every purpose under heaven…

Always Over

Everything is always over.

It isn’t here and now,

its there and then.

The window shade is crooked,

driving me crazy.

Its never over until I fix it.

The trip is over,

It was and now isn’t.

If there is no memory of the doing,

did it happen?

It isn’t here or now,

or there or then.

It just isn’t,

Or is it?

They are Everywhere

They sit in piles on my bureau,

Stacks on end tables and desktop.

They stand in rows on shelves and are silent.

Each holds it own unique secrets.

I can hear their silent words, and

feel their thoughts pushing against their covers.

They wait and are patient.

A wealth of knowledge standing by,

always steady in their thoughts, never changing their minds,

dependable and steadfast,

reliable and faithful.

I feel their presence surround me,

taste their flavor,

and am overwhelmed by their potential.

They hold the keys to so much,

so much just waiting on the shelves, desktops and end tables

enriching my space with their presence,

waiting for me to open their covers and

set their words free.

No Titles

None of my new poems have titles.

Do they need to?

Why?

To separate one from the other in a world where there is no separation?

It is 4:15 am and the robin outside my window starts his song.

Does he know his or it’s title?

Does he need to?

No, he knows what he knows.

His song begins at dawn,

4:15.

Titled or not…

Waiting for Words

Are there any more words?

I wait, I close my eyes and don’t think.

Thinking gets in the way.

Jumbles my ideas and thoughts.

Better to just wait,

close my eyes and wait.

I’ll write what they tell me to.

But not with words,

those come out of the end of my pen

All on their own.

Craziness Refined

Is crazy a prerequisite

for creative?

Is it crazy to think I can make something from nothing,

that I can pull thoughts and strings of words out of nowhere or

breath a new thought into life?

I think so.

But then, maybe creative is just craziness, refined.

Up Close

Who is he?

This man I only know up close.

Does he know me? And if so,

who is this woman, this me he knows?

We have an odd situation, he and I, like a fantasy played out on a stage,

a performance, a curtain call and

then done.

I know the up-close, the heat, the physical

Yet when I see him from a cool distance,

I don’t know him.

He becomes someone else with someone else.

So which is the real him and can he be one without the other?

When I ask him, he hesitates as if to say he doesn’t know what to say or

what I want to hear and so he leaves.

When he goes, what is left?

A space, a place holder, a thought,

another time, another place, a different now?

I know for us there is still only the now.

A now only for us.

But when the physical distance is gone, we two become one but with no future

with or without each other.

It is an isolating togetherness, just ours alone now and forever.

He steps out of his life and I out of mine and together we share a space that

 is comforting, predictable but out of place.

 A place that feels right, until it doesn’t, and I step back into the cool distance of my life.

To a place where I only know this man, up close.

Starlight

Translucent starlight

Fights its way through the cold.

Winds try to push it away but can’t.

Its tenacity is powerful.

Its mission unstoppable but

despite its power to travel through the depths of the universe,

its journey of a trillion light years will end here,

Deep inside my dark brown eyes.