What is it with my heart?
Doesn’t it understand?
I said I was done.
I can’t have what I want and need.
Besides, he is no good for me,
He just used me and threw me away.
So what about all that doesn’t
There seems to be a separation,
Me from it, just as my thoughts are from the inner me.
It has a mind of its own.
“I’m not going there,
I can’t take any more”, I told it.
“Oh yes you can” it tells me,
“You want him, you need him…you know I’m right”
“NO, I can’t… it hurts too much”, but my heart just shakes its head and laughs.
Why doesn’t it listen to me!
Why doesn’t it stop?
Why can’t I stop it, it is mine, after all, shouldn’t I be in charge?
But when I try to take charge, it beats and cries
And slams itself against the bars.
It threatens to stop, to skip town
And leave me behind.
“But I can’t follow you any more”, I tell it,
“You are not to be trusted”.
But still it doesn’t listen and takes me where I shouldn’t go
And then leaves me there alone.
It runs away with me to magical places
That only exists in its mind and makes me hope and want.
And when it is time to come back to the real world,
When the wanting and hoping haven’t worked yet again,
It cries and pleads to stay in the arms of magic,
It doesn’t want to go home, doesn’t want to give up.
And as I drag it along, kicking and screaming,
It curses me for my neglect and disbelief.
So I have to explain yet again that we can’t win, can’t have what we wantand so
Together, my heart and me, we go home, and mourn and cry and hope and dream,
And hold each other tight,
But we never give up.