At a Loss

Something has changed,

I don’t think I like it.

its not the same.

not what it was.

I can’t think,

don’t want to.

have an empty space inside,

can’t seem to fill it.

the words won’t come

the ideas are lost

why? what did I do

or not do?

nothing seems quite interesting enough,

not holding my attention,

not worth it,

i don’t think so

but … but..

what?

A disconnect, an emptiness

uncomfortable, not me.

but maybe it is, another me

one avoided, one misplaced

I’ll find myself again soon, I hope

Will you help me?

10 thoughts on “At a Loss

  1. I really like this poem and understand your feelings completely.

    I was having a hard time finding my writer-side of me. I spend all year homeschooling and to keep me on track I refuse to let myself even think of writing except if I have time. And no . . . I never have enough time. It is a struggle to get my thoughts back on track . . . To think like a writer again. I found using writing prompts really helped me a lot. I’m starting to find myself again. I hope you find yourself soon.

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    1. Thanks so much, prompts are a great idea, didn’t think of that! I have to get it back… miss it… I am glad you are finding yourself, hope I will join you soon! much light and peace to you. Michelle

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  2. This is exactly how I felt last week. My emotions were all over the place, like I was drifting off all the time, disconnected, just wanting to lay still and wallow. I also saw a few other people posting similar feelings. One person even said Mercury is in Retrograde! What ever it is, seems many of us were affected. Hope you start feeling like yourself again soon. I still don’t feel myself but just wanted to say you are not alone (hugs).

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    1. Thank you for the words of encouragement! I feel like something inside has changed…very unsettling, maybe it is cosmic? Don’t feel like talking to anyone, just want to be alone, very odd, I’m sure it will change back soon, at least I hope so! thanks for the hugs, some to you too 🙂

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  3. This is exactly how I felt last week. My emotions were all over the place, like I was drifting off all the time, disconnected, just wanting to lay still and wallow. I also saw a few other people posting similar feelings. One person even said Mercury is in Retrograde! What ever it is, seems many of us were affected. Hope you start feeling like yourself again soon. I still don’t feel myself but just wanted to say you are not alone (hugs).

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