What is it with my heart?
Doesn’t it understand?
I said I was done.
I can’t have what I want and need.
Besides, he is no good for me,
He just used me and threw me away.
So what about all that doesn’t
It understand?
There seems to be a separation,
Me from it, just as my thoughts are from the inner me.
A disconnect,
It has a mind of its own.
“I’m not going there,
I can’t take any more”, I told it.
“Oh yes you can” it tells me,
“You want him, you need him…you know I’m right”
“NO, I can’t… it hurts too much”, but my heart just shakes its head and laughs.
Why doesn’t it listen to me!
Why doesn’t it stop?
Why can’t I stop it, it is mine, after all, shouldn’t I be in charge?
But when I try to take charge, it beats and cries
And slams itself against the bars.
It threatens to stop, to skip town
And leave me behind.
“But I can’t follow you any more”, I tell it,
“You are not to be trusted”.
But still it doesn’t listen and takes me where I shouldn’t go
And then leaves me there alone.
It runs away with me to magical places
That only exists in its mind and makes me hope and want.
And when it is time to come back to the real world,
When the wanting and hoping haven’t worked yet again,
It cries and pleads to stay in the arms of magic,
It doesn’t want to go home, doesn’t want to give up.
And as I drag it along, kicking and screaming,
It curses me for my neglect and disbelief.
So I have to explain yet again that we can’t win, he said no and so
Together, my heart and me, we go home, and mourn and cry and hope and dream,
And hold each other tight,
But we never give up.
3/15
MC
Reblogged this on Human Relationships and commented:
My Heart and Me
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thank you for reading my poem and reblogging it. I am new at all of this and am looking forward to leaning from so many talented people, thanks again.
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Anytime! Thanks for great poem! Keep up good job! 🙂
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This is painfully beautifully, give your heart time. It is after all the most sensitive part of you 🙂
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Thanks, yes, I will take time for this one, he was really special, or so I thought, writing about it helps, thanks so much for your comments, very much appreciated. 🙂
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Not an expert on anything just a very average human being but I live by one thing, in the rule book you keep, rule 1. Self preservation.
That’s how I keep it 🙂
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very smart, I need to focus more on self preservation, been remiss in that area for too long!
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So inspiring and beautiful!
All the best, ❤
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Wow… what was his problem?? BIG mistake, didn’t know what a gem he had found. Moron.
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Thanks, Jack, yes he did make a big mistake, too bad we can’t make people love us…. It would be so much easier… thanks for your support, as always 🙂
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well… i don’t know about *making* someone love you, but i take your point.
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Reblogged this on Finding my way home and commented:
Together, my heart and me, we go home, and mourn and cry and hope and dream,
And hold each other tight,
But we never give up.
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I miss him. No justifications, no anger, no weakness, I just miss him.
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Thank you for the reblog, you know i think of you daily and hold you in my heart.
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Bless you Michelle. I’m getting there, sometimes one step forward ten steps back, but I’m determined to get there eventually. Big hugs ❤
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