I have to write.
It won’t let me stop.
Doesn’t matter that I
Have nothing to say.
I’ve said it all before,
The same sorry tune.
Nobody wants to hear it again,
Least of all me.
How dull, how lifeless
I have become.
My joy is dissolving,
I don’t know why.
I have asked my heart,
It doesn’t answer.
I want nothing, no kinds words
They won’t help. I am lost.
The longing continues,
The emptiness deepens.
I want to sleep in the forest,
Walk along the mountain sides,
Watch the hawks circle
in the updrafts,
and find my place in it all.
To be where I belong, to come home to me, once again.
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Sad?
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yes, kind off, just feeling really … off
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Hang in there. Yeah, the off thing. I feel you.
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That’s what I am feeling atm
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I commend to you, dear one, the advice of Hemingway:
“Write drunk, edit sober!”
😉
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I like that advice, I think I hear a bottle of wine call me! thank you, peace and light to you my friend 🙂
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Happy to pass along his wisdom!
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I think it has to do with having to accept that what we thought was happening, isn’t. And stopping, and regrouping, with that knowledge and all that accompanies it. You’ll come back, better than ever. Lessons learned. xo
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So beautiful, Dear Michelle;
Hugs and best wishes for you, ❤
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Thank you. 🙂
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I’ve experienced that and am with you in spirit! ❤
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Thank you 🙂
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“How dull, how lifeless
I have become.
My joy is dissolving,
I don’t know why.”
I am feeling exactly the same. Sending you lot of hugs dear Michelle.
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and the same back to you my friend, we must get out of the slump and get our joy back!!!
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Yes sister, life is like this: it is only after being in darkness that we can appreciate light
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Hi there my “other grandma.” Hope you’ve been doing well. I’d love to hear what you’ve been up to, have a great night!!
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Hello my other grandson! nice to hear from you. I am well. Have been getting more involved in my areas local food movement, very interesting and a real passion of mine. I am an avid gardener so this is right up my alley! Getting ready to have a summer solstice party this weekend with all my lady friends, should be fun, fire and wine and lots of drumming and signing!! hope you are well, What have you been up to?! I love your writing!! you are very talented and I look forward to read all of your blog 🙂 much love and peace to you. Michelle
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Left you a note attached to your comment on my blog. Couldn’t reply for some reason and didn’t want you to miss it.
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Home – you are already there. The emptiness subsides. Joy, intermittent, flashes brilliantly in an unexpected moment.
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Thank you for that, very moving and lovely… 🙂
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Felt I should comment in kind with you post. You’re welcome!
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To be where I belong, to come home to me, once again….
Yes, exactly that. When we love someone else too much they become our sense of home. What was once within us is now with them, and so when they withdraw they take with them the place that we belong, the place we seek for comfort, leaving us lost, lonely and wandering.
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Oh my goodness… you are so right, I never thought of it in those terms… maybe that’s why it can be so disappointing… beautifully put, thank you.
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Please remember, you will feel better. I hope it’s soon! Hugs xo
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Thank you… 🙂
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i felt this way too….so, I make a move to find myself again by being one with God and the universe instantly like magic I’m finally home again. This is great and wonderful poem simple yet it touch my soul that nobody could , but you.
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Thank you so much, your comments mean a lot to me my friend 🙂
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you’re welcome it’s my pleasure
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Thank you, your comments so lovely 🙂
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i love your writings it brings me closer to nature and God himself.
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Always remember after the dark clouds comes the sunshine to brighten up our day ! 🙂 Cheers
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Thanks for following my blog. Your kindness is greatly appreciated.
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