Trust and not.
Abandonment, not fair.
Why am I punished again
For their mistakes?
For their inability to love,
To care, to be.
So much trouble,
Not worth the effort.
Or is it? I don’t know,
How will I know?
Will it change and become
Or stay more of the same.
More of the same seems
To be the means and ends.
More time spent in sorrow
Than in joy, must mean something.
A game, with no winners,
A love with no losers.
A pain with no beginning
And no end.
A familiar story,
A heart breaker.
But not mine,
My story is different.
The heartbreak starts my story and
The end never comes.
I don’t want it to,
But it has to.
I need
I want
I cannot wait any longer
The time is here
But I am not ready and so
The story continues.
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Your pain is palpable. It makes me sad…so you hit the mark, with this. I used to think that too, why was I punished for the mistakes of those that went before. We had a long talk….Intimate talk. It was good. I hope you can find that space with your guy….it’s always a work in progress. Peace…Deb
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Very intriguing. Loved the symbolism.
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Thank you, your comments are appreciated!
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Ok. I had to read and reread. I am always on this lane. Asking and searching. One day each one of us will right get what we truly deserve. One love
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Thank you for your positive thoughts and words! much appreciated. Michelle
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You are welcome. We are all on this journey.
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