What is different,
This time from the last?
Same hearts and souls.
Same bodies and minds.
But different intentions,
A shift in perspective, mine.
Needs are the same,
Wants the same too.
But the same love?
Perhaps not.
I am afraid to ask,
I don’t want to know.
The answer may
Destroy my illusions.
But this time there is no one to blame but me
As I am the only one who loves.
My heart and soul will have to survive with
Only as much as he freely gives, without question.
It was my choice,
My decision to make and I have made it.
My mind becomes good at hiding from itself and
Seeing only what it wants to believe.
A kind of sad resignation
Of what is and an acceptance
That this is all it will be.
Stolen moments when the world stands still.
When my heart joins with his and for those few hours
We are all that exist, all that matters.
And in that moment,
As he cradles my body and heart in his arms,
His eyes see through me to my soul
And he knows and understands.
Our connection is complete and
Nothing is more beautiful or more right.
But in the end, the morning always comes again and
With bad coffee and breakfast pie, he is gone.
The longing and loving and wanting begins anew
As if it had never been fulfilled.
Until the next time,
When the world stands still, again.
3/29/15
MC
Beautiful, sad…and real, all too often!
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Sounds familiar, from times gone by. Nicely done. Stirred a lot of emotions – – things I haven’t felt or cared to feel in a long time.
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You’re welcome. Emotions can be scary and lovely all at the same time. So confusing, so conflicting, yet so deeply profound and life changing. Hope it’s not too rough and has a happy ending!
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This really tears at my heart. Are you caring for yourself as you know you should? I’ve been where you are, and when I was there, it was not at all productive, creative or healthy. Maybe it’s different for you. I hope so.
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Hello my friend! I just nominated you for The Tour Blog, please visit the link : https://ishlahii.wordpress.com/2015/03/30/the-blog-tour-award/
Thank you! 🙂
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why do I feel it too it touched my heart are we connected? lol this is beautiful Thank you for sharing
much love,
viv
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yep, we are definitely connected, soul sisters, much love to you too! Michelle and thanks for your comments!
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wow … this is great love you my soul sister !
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wow! this is great don’t you know how happy I am right now as if my heart will burst at last I’ve found you …my soul sister. much love and light . Take care now you’re not hiding.
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can we send private message on this blog stuff? I’d like to send you my regular email address so we can get to know each other better but don’t want to make it all public… I am very glad we have found each other too!!!! One can never have to many soul sisters!! love to you. 🙂
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ok please give me your email add better in private … love you too soul sister!
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I don’t know what you mean, “add better in private” ?
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Ok as you see fit …
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please do just what you see fit…I’m too excited to know you better too. with lots of love and kisses
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I’ll send you my email address right after you respond to this message so I know you are still online and right after you get it, delete it so it doesn’t stay on you page, ok?
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please do
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thanks ….blessings and happiness be yours now and always
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I can’t delete in mine
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ok, i’ll go in and delete it. do you have it written down?
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yes thank you and delete it already
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yes, deletted thanks
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